Another Week, Another Weigh-In, Another Ramble

We had our Biggest Loser weigh-ins on Tuesday and I didn’t gain anything which is always good… I lost two pounds for what it’s worth. I could complain that it was the beginning of that time of the month but at the same time I could argue the opposite in that, for every weigh in, it has been at the beginning of that time of the month!

I am glad I didn’t lose but was feeling much better the week prior and know my numbers would have looked a lot better. I want to lose 10 pounds for the last weigh in… that will be a total of 15 pounds I think. I know, I want to lose double what I have lost in the last eight weeks but I am okay with that. I have been eating pretty well and more active this week than I have been in the last, well, eight weeks.

This has been yet another month where I ended up not pregnant (which ended up being a good thing considering events last night that I rather not get into right now) but still… when I think about how we have been kind of trying for the last four or five months with nothing if I could have lost at least seven pounds each month I would be 30 – 35 pounds lighter right now. So I am disappointed in myself and once things get in a little more order at home over the next couple of weeks I am really going to focus on myself. The weather is getting nicer and it makes me feel good just to be outside. We have bicycles now and I really enjoyed the ride we took this week so I need to get more used to the bike. Plus, I want to start running again – nothing spectacular but I would like to be able to run four or five miles without it killing me and right now I think a quarter mile would kill me!

I weighed myself this morning and it was 274.4 which kind of surprised me but I am chalking it up to still be that time of the month and being bloated. That said I am planning on not weighing in for a while and going by the way my clothes fit me; right now they are fitting better… my clothes are looser and so are some of my shirts. I need to go shopping for pants since I obviously cannot wear corduroys during the spring but would like go down one size; I am currently a 22 and would like to shop for 20s so we will see as I am in desperate need for clothes, especially pants, and don’t know if I will be able to wait until I am down a size.

Oh well, we’re going to the in-laws this weekend and it always screws up my eating…

Not Too Shabby

So, after my weight had gone up a couple of pounds – which didn’t surprise me as I had been bloated and feeling somewhat constipated – it went back down to 271.4; I am hoping to be around 265 – 268 by next Tuesday morning for the weigh in here at work.

I feel like I am incredibly conscious of what I have been eating and how much and trying to make healthier choices. I had bought a couple of bottles of sparkling water and it is delicious and it is a nice alternative when I am more in the mood for soda. I am really trying to pay close attention to portion sizes as I think that is one of the biggest challenges I have. In addition to that, giving up the chocolate candy hasn’t been easy but I think has made a huge difference.

A lot of the bloating has gone away, I have more energy and my pants are fitting me looser – all giving me motivation… yay! I have 2.6 pounds to lose and then I will get myself new sneakers as these pounds or so have been the hardest thing I have ever had to do – and this from a woman who has given birth. I have lost and gain this weight so many times that I would be skinny if it was all loss :) That said, while we were hiking/ walking on Saturday my foot really started bothering me because my sneaks were not giving me near enough support… I am going to start looking up some good sneakers online so I am prepared when it is my turn to buy!

I am looking forward to an awesome week – although five pounds may be a stretch that is my goal. (the only thing I am scared about is hubby is going away for the weekend and I enjoy eating when I am alone – yikes!)

Snow Day!

Ugh. Bad day… I am having somewhat of a snow day today. We got plenty of snow last night and this morning so I decided I would work from home as opposed to trying to take my son out in it and due to the fact it was continuing to snow; we probably got another 3 – 4 inches. I love the snow and have actually taken advantage of being home not only by getting a lot of work done but also some stuff around the house and spending time with my little man. On top of that, I dressed this morning to work out and then decided to burn my calories outside instead. I worked up a good sweat and really got my heartbeat going between cleaning off the front steps and porch, then the deck, and the half of our driveway… once my son wakes up from his nap, I intend to go outside and finish the rest of the driveway.

Of course, aside from my son though, I am home alone which is my trigger to eat. So far today I have had a can of beefaroni, two slices of bread with country crock, a serving of BBQ potato chips and a serving of peanut butter cup ice cream. I did not eat breakfast which I think is part of my problem plus, like I said, I am home alone. I think the other problem is I can’t figure out what I am hungry for… so I feel like I will continue to graze until I am able to figure out what I want – that sucks. I don’t want to put on additional weight after the weight I have lost… ack. I have enjoyed my snow and I think I am now ready to go back to work; I need to go back to work just to avoid eating here at home – LOL.

Oh well, what can I say. Aside from the eating thing I am enjoying my day and hoping it takes its good old time.